Homesick

I have been so freaking homesick for the past couple of weeks. I miss my family, my pets, the mountains, my car, marching band, chorus...Everything!! And it's just even more upsetting because most everyone here has gone home at least once or twice while me and my roommate live too far away to even think of visiting. It just seems so unfair! I thought everyone here would be away from home and happy to be gone, but everyone got homesick and went home. I get homesick and have to stay here. :(

But Zach has a thing at Liberty next weekend and offered to take me home. I'm really considering it, but I also feel bad for my roommate. Because we've both been complaining about being stuck here and then I get a way out. But I'm really stinking homesick. I even miss stupid Liberty University!

I've never been the kind of person to get homesick, but I've been so upset about it lately. I think it's more the fact that everyone else has the resources to go home and I don't.

And none of my friends who are at most an hour away have offered to visit me. A lot of people have had friends visit (or at least offer!). I feel so alone. :/

But anyways. I'm still having fun at college, it's just that Family Weekend is coming up and it makes me sad to think about stuff like that.

Good & Bad

So college has been just plain awesome so far! I really love college and the people in my suite and the clubs I'm in, etc. But to act like college is all fun and games would be very unfair of me.

It IS a lot more work. I have to write more notes, do more homework, and the reading is so much harder. I got a 75 on my first Bio quiz and a 60 on my first Philosophy one. But once you realize that you're doing badly, it jumpstarts you. I plan on studying a lot more and spending less time (hopefully) on the internet. I got a 100 on my second Bio quiz. but I think I may have done quite poorly on my first Stats test. I had a major brainfart and could not figure out two of the questions. Arghhh. So at best I got an 80. :(

But I really like the people and the movies and time spent with friends.

Although I've really gotten homesick. I miss knowing where stuff is, who people are, etc. I feel like a small fish in an ocean. I really just want to go home and cuddle with my cat (who returned home after being gone for 2 weeks). And I miss Chorus with FunSized. And band. And even my old Spanish class. :(

In other news, my family came down this past weekend and we all went to see Pastor Ken. He was so funny when he realized we were in the church. He just kept saying , "Wow!" And I wanted to cry from happiness. It was like finally realizing the past two months of tears were worth it!

Okay, I have to leave in 30 minutes for Spanish where I will hopefully find out how I did on my first examen!

And of course, today is the 8th anniversary of September 11th. Never forget. <3

Oh hey...

I'm at college!

...and I've been here for about 9 days now. Heh... I apologize for the lack of updates, but I've been super busy! I've been doing all the freshman stuff hanging out with new people, and then classes started Monday so everything's been pretty crazy. I've managed to keep up with all my classes so far but waking up for MWF 8 AM has been really rough. I've overslept both times so far. But I'm not going to tomorrow! Or at least, I don't plan to.

I'm hungry and want dinner. Numm.

And I had a major Miley Cyrus jamfest laast night with my roomie! It was hilarious! :)

I love my living situation. It worked out perfectly. Except for the creepers across the hallway. xD

Oh, college. How I love thee!

Barely a Birthday

So my birthday was yesterday! I finally turned 18!

On Friday, Fun-sized all came over and we ate lots of sugar and watched Pride & Prejudice together. We kept "aww-ing" so much, haha. Mr. Darcy! And we all wore plaid shorts. Unplanned, of course.

On Saturday, I woke up and ate breakfast. Then we went shopping for bedding for college. And hen dinner with some family to meet mt uncle's girlfriend and her daughter. They both seem really nice/awesome.

And today I had church and more being lazy. With the bro updating the iPod.

I have one day left in this town. Whaaaaat?

Realizations and a Resolution

So I had another cryfest last night. But it was tears of happiness, tears of JOY. I had realized how lucky I was-- how lucky I AM-- and began crying.

I have all my immeadiate family members alive and well. I have good friends. My future roommate is really cool and super nice. I'm going to a good college. My family can afford to SEND ME to a good college. I have 4 loving (if stupid) pets. I have my own room (for another week, lol) and a bed and sheets and blankets and pillows. I can take a shower every day with clean water. I can brush my teeth and use mouthwash and eat 3 meals a freaking day. I have a loving church family and plenty of friends. I am truly BLESSED. <3

And I have made a resolution. There will be no good-byes when I leave. Only, "See you later!"

:D

Happy August!

I've been in Florida since Friday and that's why I haven't updated in a while. I still love you blog, no worries. :)

So I found out my roommate! And I didn't get tripled, thank goodness. I feel like all the college stuff is just bam bam bam! Like, everything's coming together really fast.

My birthday is in 9 days as of now. I will finally finally FINALLY be legal!

Oh joyous times.

I move in August 18th. <3

Odd Sleeping Habits

So it's really late and I should probably be in bed but I'm not. Because last night I slept really....strangely and I thought it'd be a good idea to blog about it!

Well, I was pretty tired last night because I've been working all week and I've had my church's vacation bible school. So I was tired and had music playing and finally sort of fell asleep. But the whole night was like an out-of-body experience. I was aware of my body lying there, and it felt like my body was absorbing the music and the sleep. I didn't really lose consciousness until I think 2 am...but I had been "sleeping" since midnight. It was very...odd. Like I wasn't awake or asleep, just....existing.

I'm weird.

You should check out: "Still Miss Us" by Damien Leith

<3

VBS Craziness!

Sorry I haven't posted a proper blog post in so long. I've been so busy with my job and my church's vacation bible school started Sunday night and I've been leading the 3rd-5th graders so I'm tired.

But our group is known as the Radical Rock Climbers! Woop woop! We're pretty....radical. xD

But I really do love those kids. I get so many hugs and attacks and it makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. <3

And the songs are really good this year! I like 'em I like 'em. :D

And my mom has walking pneumonia. I told her to go to the doctor! But does she listen? Nooo. but anyways. I'm off!

July Quotes

I've decided that I'll post a blog once a month with quotes that I have fallen in love with or that have deep meaning behind them or are just plain humorous. So I'll go ahead and post one and update everytime I find a new one. :)

"You can spend the rest of your life with me. But I can't spend the rest of mine with you. I have to live on-- alone. That's the curse of the Time Lords."
-- The Tenth Doctor

"You can't love me! Our babies would be dogs!"
-- Sophia

"There are better things to do today. Dying can wait."
-- The Face of Boe

Change 2.0

All of those changes I was just scared about are in full effect now. Last weekend was our pastor's first Sunday at the church. People are already getting stuff for college, preparing to move out. I'm in tears just thinking about it. Everything, everything, everything. It's all changing and there's no stopping it. I've been crying nonstop it seems lately.

The other night, I was trying to go to sleep while listening to music (as I always do) and as soon as I shut my eyes and listened to the music, I started sobbing uncontrollably. And it wasn't even a song that meant anything! It was just a regular old song, and I broke down because of it. I obviously failed to sleep and had to turn all music off. I tried listening to happy ones, upbeat ones-- but they all made me cry harder. I don't know whyyyyyyy.

Bdubs, I'm offically obsessed with Doctor who. And the adorable couple of Ten/Rose. And I've been watching depressing tributes to them on YouTube. SO FREAKING HEARTBREAKING.