Homesick

I have been so freaking homesick for the past couple of weeks. I miss my family, my pets, the mountains, my car, marching band, chorus...Everything!! And it's just even more upsetting because most everyone here has gone home at least once or twice while me and my roommate live too far away to even think of visiting. It just seems so unfair! I thought everyone here would be away from home and happy to be gone, but everyone got homesick and went home. I get homesick and have to stay here. :(

But Zach has a thing at Liberty next weekend and offered to take me home. I'm really considering it, but I also feel bad for my roommate. Because we've both been complaining about being stuck here and then I get a way out. But I'm really stinking homesick. I even miss stupid Liberty University!

I've never been the kind of person to get homesick, but I've been so upset about it lately. I think it's more the fact that everyone else has the resources to go home and I don't.

And none of my friends who are at most an hour away have offered to visit me. A lot of people have had friends visit (or at least offer!). I feel so alone. :/

But anyways. I'm still having fun at college, it's just that Family Weekend is coming up and it makes me sad to think about stuff like that.

Good & Bad

So college has been just plain awesome so far! I really love college and the people in my suite and the clubs I'm in, etc. But to act like college is all fun and games would be very unfair of me.

It IS a lot more work. I have to write more notes, do more homework, and the reading is so much harder. I got a 75 on my first Bio quiz and a 60 on my first Philosophy one. But once you realize that you're doing badly, it jumpstarts you. I plan on studying a lot more and spending less time (hopefully) on the internet. I got a 100 on my second Bio quiz. but I think I may have done quite poorly on my first Stats test. I had a major brainfart and could not figure out two of the questions. Arghhh. So at best I got an 80. :(

But I really like the people and the movies and time spent with friends.

Although I've really gotten homesick. I miss knowing where stuff is, who people are, etc. I feel like a small fish in an ocean. I really just want to go home and cuddle with my cat (who returned home after being gone for 2 weeks). And I miss Chorus with FunSized. And band. And even my old Spanish class. :(

In other news, my family came down this past weekend and we all went to see Pastor Ken. He was so funny when he realized we were in the church. He just kept saying , "Wow!" And I wanted to cry from happiness. It was like finally realizing the past two months of tears were worth it!

Okay, I have to leave in 30 minutes for Spanish where I will hopefully find out how I did on my first examen!

And of course, today is the 8th anniversary of September 11th. Never forget. <3